This is a comment from the second name mentioned in the previous blog regarding ‘the best school nationwide’. His comment:
looking back at myself n our friends out there, i wonder why most of us are not what we are supposed to be as a student graduated from a sekolah agama.."product gagal" as they usually said..like u’ve said the hate, the grudge, the pain we got from the ustaz’s rotan/punishment or even the sound of ust. nasa/fendi’s motorcycle di pagi2 subuh shj pon udah bisa mmbuat bdk2 sume lari beterabur..apetah lagi ust.zawawi…just to name a few..these would certainly affected some part of our life..but to blame all to those wardens I’m sure we are being unfair..
we should ask ourselves back then when we first received the offer letter..did we really want to go to a sekolah agama..did we really excited over the term “Agama” NOT the term “SBP” in that our offer letter..did we really choose to go to labu instead of alam shah or mckk or a few hundreds of other mrsms if we had the choice..i really doubted it as the opportunity to go to a national boarding school is very limited..so im sure we said "ah labu pon labu lah, labi" even we don’t know where the hell is that school, isn’t it?..i do not know about others, but i speak for me myself..
so we chose to go to sekolah agama with half-hearted feeling at the very beginning without realizing it..started to follow whatever abg2 naqib suruh masa tgktan 1&2..slowly started to be an arrogant senior di tingkatan 3..berbulan madu n rebellious di tingkatan 4..n still tak sedar diri spm lg 3 bulan..n so on..
my point is that at that time we chose what we want to be…we choose to miss all those opportunity..we choose to let it go and choose not to go with the flow..i know how much some of us really feel regret about it..let us just leave those wardens alone..the blame is ours..they surely had gave some wrong tarbiyyah/model or maybe accidentally use those old-Islamic-school methods to educate new generations like us who have different mentality as from their time..but kalo nak kaji btol2 sape salah, we can even argue the idea of national agama boarding school is not at the right path in the very first place..but who’s really care? Certainly not PakLah.
I cannot blame if someone choose to hate. I still kinda have the grudge at the school, rasa kecewa, rasa tanak dah jejak kaki, u know me kan Amar, me being in ‘Romeo Must Die’ geng n all, did our own stuffs like its our own world, didn’t really care what others kutuk2(tp still aku terasa)..but still I can smile whenever I recall those warden faces, tamparan Ust.sulaiman, sindir herdik ustaz X yg kalo cite mesti terkejut-berok semua..but that’s what we call life/experience, isn’t it? As we really deserved it..
Still I love the school, and without a single doubt u too feel the same, right?..the suasana, the view of bdk2 pompuan bertudung labuh tersipu2 baru pulang dari kota Seremban :p eheh..
yeah maybe a little bit ashamed to admit from Labu considering how ‘Islamic’ I am.:p well I’m trying lol..everyone does..n the excellent example: this blog owner.
This is just my unworthy 2 cents, just to let u know how I really feel about our school since I can’t stop thinking about it after reading your entry..really2 menyedarkan aku..kekadang aku jd blog stalker jgk hehe so beware :p..and if u really think u know me, then think again..hemm am I being too emotional?? Quoting the song, “Oh lord pls dont let me be misunderstood”..
I also hope you might publish this e-mail as it might change some minds that see us dont really care about we being a product gagal or lulus and think we just dont give a damn about the opportunities that we had back in our school time,which is not true..
maybe u dont encounter this situation but i know some of these people,Amar. and somehow it really hurts me..so thats all..sori 4 being such an emo
-thesecondnamementioned-
-End of the second name comment-
My comment:
1) I am sorry if the way I quoted in the previous post you make you sad. This comment of yours is highly appreciated by me. Biler nak datang Bristol? nanti aku belanje.
2) Just to quote him, ‘Still I love the school, and without a single doubt u too feel the same, right?.’ — To be honest, I don’t feel the same. I hate the school, those 5 years were the worst phase of my life. I just cannot lie to myself, though some people would say that I am an arrogant and ungrateful.
3) To quote him saying ,‘ yeah maybe a little bit ashamed to admit from Labu considering how ‘Islamic’ I am.:p well I’m trying lol..everyone does..n the excellent example: this blog owner.’ —just to clarify this, I might be misunderstood though, I learn more about Islam in KMYS and UK than in that school, therefore to say that there is high correlation between how Islamic I am and the school that I attended seems to be too generous. My personal hypothesis: No correlation, both are independent events. And I don’t feel shame to admit that I am a flawed product from that school, as the school itself is…… (personal opinion).
4) I must admit, to a certain extent, I deserved the punishment. But how about the rest of the extent?
5) And I would like to put a disclaimer to my previous post, The comments that I made about ‘the best school nationwide’ is derived just from my tiny winy perspective of personal experience and opinion. It might be false though. As Muhammad Asad said in The Road to Mecca,’such a narrowed angle of vision is bound to produce a distorted perspective’. However people who share the same perspective and angle with me might find it right though….